im blogging..
im blogging..
yeah, im blogging..
but i really cant think of what to blog now..
hmm. what should i blog?
im trying v hard to think what to blog..
im cracking my brain on what to blog..
but i just cant think of anything to blog..
i will come back again when i know what to blog..
till now, my mind is a blank on what to blog..
why dun u peeps tell me what i can blog?
i know i wanna blog.
but i aint sure what i wan to blog!
i shall think hard of what to blog.
be patient w me while i blog...
blogging is so hard!
what can be so difficult bout blogging?
maybe blogging is really difficult!
WOW.. I JUST BLOGGED. :D
CANT WAIT TO SEE MY FLOWERS AND DRAGON LATA! :)
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Monday, December 18, 2006
TMR TMR TMR!!!
Highly anticipated.... and I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU ALL AGAINN!!
opps, do i sound hyper and siao? : D
christmas gathering, plus laughter and jokes! What can be more?
people studying now, have a GREAT holiday yeah? (: rest while you all can, cos TEP IS REALLY V TIRING!! ):
anyway, i cant wait to meet u all again.. so, HOPE THAT TODAY WILL BE GONE IN A BLINK! : D
okie, i have nothing to blog now, just wasting space here. wahahaha..
God bless,
estheRoan*
Highly anticipated.... and I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU ALL AGAINN!!
opps, do i sound hyper and siao? : D
christmas gathering, plus laughter and jokes! What can be more?
people studying now, have a GREAT holiday yeah? (: rest while you all can, cos TEP IS REALLY V TIRING!! ):
anyway, i cant wait to meet u all again.. so, HOPE THAT TODAY WILL BE GONE IN A BLINK! : D
okie, i have nothing to blog now, just wasting space here. wahahaha..
God bless,
estheRoan*
Friday, December 15, 2006
Roan.. today dun have 4D .. if i dun blog , i would soon hear dragon's nagging...
Now in free access lab, skipped my first biz law tutorial... cant stand the teacher, can talk for hours no matter how short the qns are.. talk n talk n talk.... going for class BBQ later.. hope it dun rains....
Joy, enjoy as much as u want when ms tan is not around, so shiok right.. last time the whole EMRS even went bishan to eat breakfast, shop.. lol...since yr event is in jan, and u finish what u are supposed to do... RC wont care where u go one.. haha... last time we even told him we went AMK to play pool, he also never say anything... nice teacher ah...haha.... when there is events, the days will not be so fun, will be busy like crazy...
Tuesday is coming.... have not decide on what to buy for our christmas exchange gift.. will be out shopping this weekend... it's been quite some time all of us meet up... hmm.. that all for now... bye...
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Yo guys! If i still don't blog soon think I'll b geting scolding frm Dragon liaoz... haha... Anyway... Is't boring in EMRS nw la!!! Events r all in Jan.. N i'm owaes in my prj rm slacking awa.. Watch dramas, eat, slp n chit-chat... Omg!!! U can c a bigger version of mi in juz another 7 wks man... Hai... muz control myself man!!!
N noe wad? Juz heard tt Ms Tan Peck Khim will b on leave frm 15th to 26th Dec!!! Omg!!! Tt's a total of 12 days man... yeah!!! haha... Gonna go k n shop all e way wif Cecilia dey all le!!! Haha... So happy! Shhhh! Dun tell any1 huh...
Anyway... juz 2 update... We'll b having gift exchange ofa budget of 5 bucks... @ most 10 bucks plz... n We'll b going New York New York 4 dinner... Coz it's near Esplande n it's quite affordable.. N der's cotton candy!! Yum Yum! haha...Welll.. tink tt's all 4 nw... Will blog again soon!Love my flowers n dragon!
N noe wad? Juz heard tt Ms Tan Peck Khim will b on leave frm 15th to 26th Dec!!! Omg!!! Tt's a total of 12 days man... yeah!!! haha... Gonna go k n shop all e way wif Cecilia dey all le!!! Haha... So happy! Shhhh! Dun tell any1 huh...
Anyway... juz 2 update... We'll b having gift exchange ofa budget of 5 bucks... @ most 10 bucks plz... n We'll b going New York New York 4 dinner... Coz it's near Esplande n it's quite affordable.. N der's cotton candy!! Yum Yum! haha...Welll.. tink tt's all 4 nw... Will blog again soon!Love my flowers n dragon!
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
some meaningful stuffs about TIME
hello flowers and dragon! I know I have not been updating in this blog.. haha.. busy busy lah.. or... lazy.. haha!
I am in CSC now.. for Singtel, to do customer survey.. I started calling officially today, and its not bad! haha.. (: managed to hit target today.. i even exceed it! wahaha.. ~ if only everyday also like that.. then SHIOK.
haha. alright. SHARING TIME!
To realize The value of a sister Ask someone Who doesn't have one.
To realize The value of ten years: Ask a newly Divorced couple.
To realize The value of four years: Ask a graduate.
To realize The value of one year: Ask a student who Has failed a final exam.
To realize The value of nine months: Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize The value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to A premature baby.
To realize The value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize The value of one hour: Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize The value of one minute: Ask a person Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize The value of one-second: Ask a person Who has survived an accident...
To! realize The value of one millisecond: Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend: Lose one.
Meaningful? I guess so.. So long nv meet up with you guys le.. NEXT TUES MUST PARTY OK??? cya all in sch someday! (:
God bless,
estheRoan*
I am in CSC now.. for Singtel, to do customer survey.. I started calling officially today, and its not bad! haha.. (: managed to hit target today.. i even exceed it! wahaha.. ~ if only everyday also like that.. then SHIOK.
haha. alright. SHARING TIME!
To realize The value of a sister Ask someone Who doesn't have one.
To realize The value of ten years: Ask a newly Divorced couple.
To realize The value of four years: Ask a graduate.
To realize The value of one year: Ask a student who Has failed a final exam.
To realize The value of nine months: Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize The value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to A premature baby.
To realize The value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize The value of one hour: Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize The value of one minute: Ask a person Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize The value of one-second: Ask a person Who has survived an accident...
To! realize The value of one millisecond: Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend: Lose one.
Meaningful? I guess so.. So long nv meet up with you guys le.. NEXT TUES MUST PARTY OK??? cya all in sch someday! (:
God bless,
estheRoan*


hey guys!finally! our next gathering!our next gathering will be during the christmas gathering....it will be held next tuesday (19dec2006)...btw...have u all thought of what to buy for the christmas exchange present?i'm still clueless.....hmmm......
Friday, December 08, 2006
hi there
its been friggin long since i have been blogging here. how have you guy and gals been? although life has changed drastically for me, i still wish the best for all of you. from the bottom of my heart.
Thank you all so much for always bearing with me... in terms of mood swings and fuckin' nonsense plus bo liao ranting. whatever it may be, i am here to tell you all that i am always here for you all too..
dragon aka CB kia, i do sincerely hope that your dream comes true. really, although i do not know whether it might happen in reality but what matters most is that it had made your day right?
Roan, thanks for recommending me the 2h job. Have some more income to buy things and do things that i wanted for long. will look more intensively for a part time job! thanks gal. may you have many happy moments with your Mr Right.
Xiu Hui, thank you for always listening to my bo liao rantings. i know it always dampens your spirits by making you worry for me.. but hey, i'm doing fine still. will hold out since i am amilia (p.s: i got andy too~ to those who may noe. wahaha.. and jun feng lol :P)
Sok Wan, although you might not be in contact with us that often, it is still nice to see you smiling with your charismatic mega watt smile.
Jie Yi, i hope you are well now. i did not know that sore throat may be so serious. take care ya.. thanks for helping me out whenever you can!
Joycelin, i know that you are in EMRS now. have fun for the 10 weeks like i have enjoyed mine too! will try hard to conquer IM for now. hehe, many happy times ahead for you yea?
Shereen, thank you for helping me in keying the Personal Selling transactions. it was definitely nice to know that Fusion did not experience any system failure on that day. Other than that, thank you for always taking the effort to arrange lunch time meetings to makan and stuff
amilia here.. signing off.. till then, lets anticipate our next gathering ya?
Thank you all so much for always bearing with me... in terms of mood swings and fuckin' nonsense plus bo liao ranting. whatever it may be, i am here to tell you all that i am always here for you all too..
dragon aka CB kia, i do sincerely hope that your dream comes true. really, although i do not know whether it might happen in reality but what matters most is that it had made your day right?
Roan, thanks for recommending me the 2h job. Have some more income to buy things and do things that i wanted for long. will look more intensively for a part time job! thanks gal. may you have many happy moments with your Mr Right.
Xiu Hui, thank you for always listening to my bo liao rantings. i know it always dampens your spirits by making you worry for me.. but hey, i'm doing fine still. will hold out since i am amilia (p.s: i got andy too~ to those who may noe. wahaha.. and jun feng lol :P)
Sok Wan, although you might not be in contact with us that often, it is still nice to see you smiling with your charismatic mega watt smile.
Jie Yi, i hope you are well now. i did not know that sore throat may be so serious. take care ya.. thanks for helping me out whenever you can!
Joycelin, i know that you are in EMRS now. have fun for the 10 weeks like i have enjoyed mine too! will try hard to conquer IM for now. hehe, many happy times ahead for you yea?
Shereen, thank you for helping me in keying the Personal Selling transactions. it was definitely nice to know that Fusion did not experience any system failure on that day. Other than that, thank you for always taking the effort to arrange lunch time meetings to makan and stuff
amilia here.. signing off.. till then, lets anticipate our next gathering ya?
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
22nd December
HEAR YE! HEAR YE!
Do you hear the sound of sleigh bells ringing? Do you hear the laughter of our jolly ol` Saint Nicholas? If you do, then get ready to party cos` we are gathering on the 22nd of December for Christmas! Surprisingly, the previous year, we gathered on the 22nd too! So it will be exactly a year once we meet on the 22nd!
We have quite little time to make final decisions. However, the latest news I have heard from our beloved Da Jie, is that we might be going to Joycelin's house. How sure on that I can be, I have no idea. But what is everyone's view? Do stay in touch and I will be heading the planning for this affair. So everyone give me your ideas!
Everyone will be invited. Including your boyfriends! I expect to see everyone's boyfriend there! No excuses. Da Jie, just stop habouring any thoughts on about celebrating Rabbit's birthday la. It ain't gonna happen! LOL~
Until then people, I bid you to stay safe and godspeed!
Do you hear the sound of sleigh bells ringing? Do you hear the laughter of our jolly ol` Saint Nicholas? If you do, then get ready to party cos` we are gathering on the 22nd of December for Christmas! Surprisingly, the previous year, we gathered on the 22nd too! So it will be exactly a year once we meet on the 22nd!
We have quite little time to make final decisions. However, the latest news I have heard from our beloved Da Jie, is that we might be going to Joycelin's house. How sure on that I can be, I have no idea. But what is everyone's view? Do stay in touch and I will be heading the planning for this affair. So everyone give me your ideas!
Everyone will be invited. Including your boyfriends! I expect to see everyone's boyfriend there! No excuses. Da Jie, just stop habouring any thoughts on about celebrating Rabbit's birthday la. It ain't gonna happen! LOL~
Until then people, I bid you to stay safe and godspeed!
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Rêves.
Before I go into the main topic, I would like you all to welcome our new member of this family. That is Roan's boyfriend!!! Alvin! Since Roan is our Empress Dowager, Alvin will become our Emperor. Sad to say however, that means Roan is now an Empress cos` an Empress can become an Empress Dowager only when her husband has passed away. So yea, you are now just an Empress! LOL~
Therefore, like Singapore, we see pictures of our President and First Lady everywhere. Thus, in this Kingdom of 7 Flowers, we need to have their picture posted up too!

Our Emperor and lovely Empress!
On to the main topic of the day. Rêves. This mean, "Dreams" in French. I am sure some of you already know about what I am to blog. But yes, I am still gonna blog it down so as to keep track of it. Journalise it.(Not debit or credit it!) It is also interesting to read back and see the dreams I have. So from today onwards, I am going to keep records of my dreams in here. Some might be funny, some might be sad. Who knows? Let me get moving on anyways.
I am sure everyone have dreams. Be it good or bad, it somehow leaves an impression on you and soon after, you forget about it. I had my fair share of good and bad dreams. Some were logical and some just totally preposterous. People once told me that dreams affect their emotions for the upcoming day. I never believed and experienced it until last night.
Before I go any further, this post will contain really mushy things and things that I have no courage to say it out through my mouth. Reading this might induce some "eee!" or "eeyer!" and perhaps some laughter. It is alright that you laugh. But just keep the laughter to behind the computer screen. I don't think I would be in the mood to hear anyone laugh in front of me about this issue here. And I wish this wouldn't affect your opinion on anyone else I mention in my dreams cos` this is just my subconscious diggin out random thoughts to entertain me in the night.
So I was just saying how dreams can affect people's emotions for the day. This dream I had made me really very happy and at the same time, sad. I can explicitly(Shu Yun, remember there is a letter "i" in this word.) remember every single detail of the dream I had last night. Right down to every single word I said in the dream. Da jie told me if I remember the dream, it most probably wouldn't come true in life. On the other hand, Roan told me that her's came true. It was kind of difficult for me to believe both of them. One was positive and the other negetive. What do you all think?
Saying so much, I am sure you people roughly know what my dream consists of. Yes. It is indeed about her. My dream went like this.
I was on my way to meet her. I remembered clearly that one of the things we are supposed to do together was to have a morning walk in a park when she returns. So that morning, I took a bus to her house and met her downstairs. She was wore a dress which was really nice. So we hopped on the bus 156 to Bishan park. Throughout the bus journey, we didn't really say much but she told me how it was like studying in a foreign country. I was listening attentively.
Not long after, we alighted and started our walk in Bishan park. As usual, I felt really happy just being able to see her. Walking and conversing with her early that morning felt like the best feeling I have had in ages. She told me of what her study scope was, how the lecturers were like and some of her friends she made there. I, on the other hand, was telling her how boring my life here in Singapore is. I also mentioned to her that I have found a group of poly friends which recognised me during my first year of studies. How they have made my school life more vibrant and interesting. So we just spent about an hour walking around and enjoying each other's company.
We came to the pond after walking around for quite some time. She wanted to sit down on the grass. So I complied and sat down with her. Just at this moment, she looked at me sitting down and I looked right into her face and her eyes. It was as though that whole instance passed by very slowly as I looked into her eyes with full of feelings for her. Feeling slightly embarrassed, I quickly averted her eyes and just looked at the pond.
She asked me, "So how have you really been all these time?"
I thought for awhile and said, "Pretty all right. Troubled at times and feeling completely helpless sometimes."
"What about your love life?"
I kept quiet and acted like I didn't hear what she asked.
She didn't say anything either. In my heart, I actually wanted her to ask once more. I decided that if she asked again, I would bare my feelings to her. I waited for her for such a long time. It was time that I let it all out.
We just sat there enjoying the breeze and view. Where out of the sudden she asked me again.
"What about your love life?"
I was taken aback. Feeling all confused inside. I turned my head slowly and looked into her eyes. I was contemplating to tell her. Plucking up all the courage I ever had, I finally decided to tell her my feelings.
"(Let's call her, Lynnette) Lynnette. I have something to say. You have a moment to hear me?"
"Go ahead."
"For five long years, I have waited. Just for this day. Longing to let my feelings out. I remember the first day I saw you in school. You really attracted me. At that period of time, I never thought I could become your friend at all and all I could be was just some stupid secret admirer. Somehow, we ended up as best friends. I am really happy that we became best friends. Yet also sad that we are best friends. Being your best friend also meant that my chance of ever having you by my side as my girlfriend is diminished. I sometimes hate it so much so that I wished I never was your best friend."
There was a long pause. I knew I was trembling with fear and was stuttering the whole time. She broke the silence.
"And your point being?"
After that, I didn't know what to say. I was there, close to tears and my mind was just working overtime. I just blurted out whatever came to my mind.
"Lynnette. I love you. All these time, I kept it to myself. I never dared tell you my feelings until today cos` I know how you feel and what the conclusion will be. I know of many reasons of why you should not accept me. However, I am just chasing this stupid notion of us being a couple cos` of my feelings for you. I know I am not as handsome as many other guys you see around me, neither am I as manly as them. I have different aspirations from you and you are stronger in character than I am. If we are together, you will be the stronger player in this game. That will totally give you no sense of security at all. I can understand all these.
No matter how much I wish I could beg you to even consider the slightest probability of us being together, I can't. I do not want you to pity me. Someone once told me that I could protect you even though you are my best friend. But, it is not the same as protecting you if you are mine. I totally am feeling lost and confused right now. I have no idea how things will continue right now. Yet I am afraid of losing..."
"Xin. Say no more."
All these while I was looking into her eyes and somehow, just that sentence of her's calmed me down entirely. At that moment, she leaned forward and gave me a kiss on my lips.
I was stunned. I was taken aback and my eyes were wide open and I didn't breathe at all. After that, she just turned her head and looked straight at the pond. I was still shocked and looking at her. I did not know what to say. I looked stupid.
With tears rolling down from my eyes and staring into the space, I was jolted out of my shock when she said something.
"Don't you have something you want to ask me?"
A thousand thoughts was like running through my head when she asked me that question.
"What the hell could she mean?! Is she hinting me something? What if she rejects me? What am I supposed to do?"
Somehow, as if by magic, I knelt down and looked dead straight into her eyes.
"Lynnette, I love you. Would you please be my steady girl?"
I was terrified by what answer she would give and yet still held a hope that good things might happen. I saw her mouth move. I heard nothing. Only with a single nod from her head, I understood everything. That moment, I was already crying. I never smiled so happily in my life before.
Like an angel descending from the heavens, she spread her arms out and came over to hug me. Like a bloody weakling I always am, I cried in her arms.
After I had calmed down, I looked at her and asked her.
"I am not dreaming about this am I?" (Oh for heaven's sake! You are of cos` dreaming about this! Stupid Dragon!)
She shook her head and just looked at me.
"Are you serious about your decision then? You really are going to be my steady girl? It isn't a joke right?"
"No, it isn't a joke. Yes, I am serious about my decision."
On hearing those words, I was just elated! I looked at her and then leaned forward to kiss her once more. From there, I literally jumped for joy! I was jumping all around and punching my fists in the air and shouting like a crazy person ala the Singapore drama serial people who does the same thing when the guy successfully asks the girl for her hand. That is when I accidentally tripped over a stone and fell into the pond. Surprisingly, I didn't know how to swim and soon I was gasping for air.
At that moment, in real life, I could not breathe for that one moment and I woke up with a jolt gasping for air. When I awoke from this beautiful dream, I felt happy and also a huge immense of sadness. Then I went to school.
So this is the first dream I have recorded and it is one that I really want to remember. Whether it will come true or not, I think it is something for me to read back in future. Just remember not to laugh about this in front of me. Just keep it to laughing behind the computer. At least I do not know if you really did laugh or not.
To whom may read this, this is just purely a dream. Although it very much reflects my feelings, I still want to keep things under wrap. If you know about it, please do not let me know. I don't think I am ready for that moment of truth yet.
Therefore, like Singapore, we see pictures of our President and First Lady everywhere. Thus, in this Kingdom of 7 Flowers, we need to have their picture posted up too!

Our Emperor and lovely Empress!
On to the main topic of the day. Rêves. This mean, "Dreams" in French. I am sure some of you already know about what I am to blog. But yes, I am still gonna blog it down so as to keep track of it. Journalise it.(Not debit or credit it!) It is also interesting to read back and see the dreams I have. So from today onwards, I am going to keep records of my dreams in here. Some might be funny, some might be sad. Who knows? Let me get moving on anyways.
I am sure everyone have dreams. Be it good or bad, it somehow leaves an impression on you and soon after, you forget about it. I had my fair share of good and bad dreams. Some were logical and some just totally preposterous. People once told me that dreams affect their emotions for the upcoming day. I never believed and experienced it until last night.
Before I go any further, this post will contain really mushy things and things that I have no courage to say it out through my mouth. Reading this might induce some "eee!" or "eeyer!" and perhaps some laughter. It is alright that you laugh. But just keep the laughter to behind the computer screen. I don't think I would be in the mood to hear anyone laugh in front of me about this issue here. And I wish this wouldn't affect your opinion on anyone else I mention in my dreams cos` this is just my subconscious diggin out random thoughts to entertain me in the night.
So I was just saying how dreams can affect people's emotions for the day. This dream I had made me really very happy and at the same time, sad. I can explicitly(Shu Yun, remember there is a letter "i" in this word.) remember every single detail of the dream I had last night. Right down to every single word I said in the dream. Da jie told me if I remember the dream, it most probably wouldn't come true in life. On the other hand, Roan told me that her's came true. It was kind of difficult for me to believe both of them. One was positive and the other negetive. What do you all think?
Saying so much, I am sure you people roughly know what my dream consists of. Yes. It is indeed about her. My dream went like this.
I was on my way to meet her. I remembered clearly that one of the things we are supposed to do together was to have a morning walk in a park when she returns. So that morning, I took a bus to her house and met her downstairs. She was wore a dress which was really nice. So we hopped on the bus 156 to Bishan park. Throughout the bus journey, we didn't really say much but she told me how it was like studying in a foreign country. I was listening attentively.
Not long after, we alighted and started our walk in Bishan park. As usual, I felt really happy just being able to see her. Walking and conversing with her early that morning felt like the best feeling I have had in ages. She told me of what her study scope was, how the lecturers were like and some of her friends she made there. I, on the other hand, was telling her how boring my life here in Singapore is. I also mentioned to her that I have found a group of poly friends which recognised me during my first year of studies. How they have made my school life more vibrant and interesting. So we just spent about an hour walking around and enjoying each other's company.
We came to the pond after walking around for quite some time. She wanted to sit down on the grass. So I complied and sat down with her. Just at this moment, she looked at me sitting down and I looked right into her face and her eyes. It was as though that whole instance passed by very slowly as I looked into her eyes with full of feelings for her. Feeling slightly embarrassed, I quickly averted her eyes and just looked at the pond.
She asked me, "So how have you really been all these time?"
I thought for awhile and said, "Pretty all right. Troubled at times and feeling completely helpless sometimes."
"What about your love life?"
I kept quiet and acted like I didn't hear what she asked.
She didn't say anything either. In my heart, I actually wanted her to ask once more. I decided that if she asked again, I would bare my feelings to her. I waited for her for such a long time. It was time that I let it all out.
We just sat there enjoying the breeze and view. Where out of the sudden she asked me again.
"What about your love life?"
I was taken aback. Feeling all confused inside. I turned my head slowly and looked into her eyes. I was contemplating to tell her. Plucking up all the courage I ever had, I finally decided to tell her my feelings.
"(Let's call her, Lynnette) Lynnette. I have something to say. You have a moment to hear me?"
"Go ahead."
"For five long years, I have waited. Just for this day. Longing to let my feelings out. I remember the first day I saw you in school. You really attracted me. At that period of time, I never thought I could become your friend at all and all I could be was just some stupid secret admirer. Somehow, we ended up as best friends. I am really happy that we became best friends. Yet also sad that we are best friends. Being your best friend also meant that my chance of ever having you by my side as my girlfriend is diminished. I sometimes hate it so much so that I wished I never was your best friend."
There was a long pause. I knew I was trembling with fear and was stuttering the whole time. She broke the silence.
"And your point being?"
After that, I didn't know what to say. I was there, close to tears and my mind was just working overtime. I just blurted out whatever came to my mind.
"Lynnette. I love you. All these time, I kept it to myself. I never dared tell you my feelings until today cos` I know how you feel and what the conclusion will be. I know of many reasons of why you should not accept me. However, I am just chasing this stupid notion of us being a couple cos` of my feelings for you. I know I am not as handsome as many other guys you see around me, neither am I as manly as them. I have different aspirations from you and you are stronger in character than I am. If we are together, you will be the stronger player in this game. That will totally give you no sense of security at all. I can understand all these.
No matter how much I wish I could beg you to even consider the slightest probability of us being together, I can't. I do not want you to pity me. Someone once told me that I could protect you even though you are my best friend. But, it is not the same as protecting you if you are mine. I totally am feeling lost and confused right now. I have no idea how things will continue right now. Yet I am afraid of losing..."
"Xin. Say no more."
All these while I was looking into her eyes and somehow, just that sentence of her's calmed me down entirely. At that moment, she leaned forward and gave me a kiss on my lips.
I was stunned. I was taken aback and my eyes were wide open and I didn't breathe at all. After that, she just turned her head and looked straight at the pond. I was still shocked and looking at her. I did not know what to say. I looked stupid.
With tears rolling down from my eyes and staring into the space, I was jolted out of my shock when she said something.
"Don't you have something you want to ask me?"
A thousand thoughts was like running through my head when she asked me that question.
"What the hell could she mean?! Is she hinting me something? What if she rejects me? What am I supposed to do?"
Somehow, as if by magic, I knelt down and looked dead straight into her eyes.
"Lynnette, I love you. Would you please be my steady girl?"
I was terrified by what answer she would give and yet still held a hope that good things might happen. I saw her mouth move. I heard nothing. Only with a single nod from her head, I understood everything. That moment, I was already crying. I never smiled so happily in my life before.
Like an angel descending from the heavens, she spread her arms out and came over to hug me. Like a bloody weakling I always am, I cried in her arms.
After I had calmed down, I looked at her and asked her.
"I am not dreaming about this am I?" (Oh for heaven's sake! You are of cos` dreaming about this! Stupid Dragon!)
She shook her head and just looked at me.
"Are you serious about your decision then? You really are going to be my steady girl? It isn't a joke right?"
"No, it isn't a joke. Yes, I am serious about my decision."
On hearing those words, I was just elated! I looked at her and then leaned forward to kiss her once more. From there, I literally jumped for joy! I was jumping all around and punching my fists in the air and shouting like a crazy person ala the Singapore drama serial people who does the same thing when the guy successfully asks the girl for her hand. That is when I accidentally tripped over a stone and fell into the pond. Surprisingly, I didn't know how to swim and soon I was gasping for air.
At that moment, in real life, I could not breathe for that one moment and I woke up with a jolt gasping for air. When I awoke from this beautiful dream, I felt happy and also a huge immense of sadness. Then I went to school.
So this is the first dream I have recorded and it is one that I really want to remember. Whether it will come true or not, I think it is something for me to read back in future. Just remember not to laugh about this in front of me. Just keep it to laughing behind the computer. At least I do not know if you really did laugh or not.
To whom may read this, this is just purely a dream. Although it very much reflects my feelings, I still want to keep things under wrap. If you know about it, please do not let me know. I don't think I am ready for that moment of truth yet.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
hey!
been awhile. and pocky's asking y i nv blog. so here i am! :) been really bz working on my MM proj. thanx to pocky! she helped me lots in my MM. if i cant get an A, i will be sure to let her down! :( hee. owed her one big huGGGG... =D
shes crazy anyway. tt day, she joined me over at IBRC. and logged on to MY msn. and clicked HER own contact, and said HI. -_-" waha. *pardon her, shes lonely in BSU. oops.* thats still ok thou. aft tt, she went back to her own comp, and replied back. -_-''''''''
anyways. so sian. i need to get out! i need air badly, thou its hazey out there. when are we going out, flowers and dragon? ask me out soon ok?? :) miss u all s0o0o much!
oh well. gtg. til we all meet ok? miss me nots! =D
been awhile. and pocky's asking y i nv blog. so here i am! :) been really bz working on my MM proj. thanx to pocky! she helped me lots in my MM. if i cant get an A, i will be sure to let her down! :( hee. owed her one big huGGGG... =D
shes crazy anyway. tt day, she joined me over at IBRC. and logged on to MY msn. and clicked HER own contact, and said HI. -_-" waha. *pardon her, shes lonely in BSU. oops.* thats still ok thou. aft tt, she went back to her own comp, and replied back. -_-''''''''
anyways. so sian. i need to get out! i need air badly, thou its hazey out there. when are we going out, flowers and dragon? ask me out soon ok?? :) miss u all s0o0o much!
oh well. gtg. til we all meet ok? miss me nots! =D
Monday, October 23, 2006
HELLO PEOPLE! i am here to blog!
wahaha.. missed mi?
I m sure u all missed mi right, just that you all dont show it...
haha.. dont be shy la. (: WAHAHA
okie, enough of all this nonsense.
Sch started for all of us already, but it seems like we dont have everyone together for lunch even once after the holidays! its quite sad, cos I MISSED YOU ALL LIKE CRAZY! dragon, u should know, when i see you all or meet you all for lunch i would be so so so hyper la! (:
I am stuck in BSU.. ): Its damn sian sometime. But then xiu hui would come and save my day by asking me out for breakfast! Shereen will accompany mi for lunch! and Ami will always go back home with me! (: I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE YOU ALL! (:
So, when can we meet to have lunch together? It seems long that we gathered and talk and laughed.. ): When was the very last time? I think it would be sok wan's birthday celebration. Cos dragon's birthday shereen didnt attend...
Hmm, hope to see you all soon okay??
Love ya and rock on people!
Love,
estheRoanpocky(:
wahaha.. missed mi?
I m sure u all missed mi right, just that you all dont show it...
haha.. dont be shy la. (: WAHAHA
okie, enough of all this nonsense.
Sch started for all of us already, but it seems like we dont have everyone together for lunch even once after the holidays! its quite sad, cos I MISSED YOU ALL LIKE CRAZY! dragon, u should know, when i see you all or meet you all for lunch i would be so so so hyper la! (:
I am stuck in BSU.. ): Its damn sian sometime. But then xiu hui would come and save my day by asking me out for breakfast! Shereen will accompany mi for lunch! and Ami will always go back home with me! (: I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE YOU ALL! (:
So, when can we meet to have lunch together? It seems long that we gathered and talk and laughed.. ): When was the very last time? I think it would be sok wan's birthday celebration. Cos dragon's birthday shereen didnt attend...
Hmm, hope to see you all soon okay??
Love ya and rock on people!
Love,
estheRoanpocky(:
Saturday, October 21, 2006
First week of school has passed
One week down and many more weeks to go! Being in a new semester and all, I am quite happy! At least I know I am still in school. Although I want to do TEP this semester, I can't due to not clearing my year one module. Ok. I learnt my lesson. Never slack too much. It sucks, it really sucks! That would mean I have to do TEP alone next semester. =.=
However, thank God (This is just an expression. I never ever believe there is one.) that I have such good friends in Poly. They are always on the constant lookout for me. Helping me whenever they can. And not forgetting that they encourage me when I am down. I am sorry I took this long to write a thank you to all of you for the lovely card you sent me. In all my life, this is the first time I have recieved an encouragement note from my friends. To all my Seven flowers, I Thank You!
I will work hard from now on! I know words are cheap, so stay in tuned to see my results from ICAs and exams. I will prove it to everyone! And that my friends, is a promise by Dragon.
Finally, it has indeed been a long time since I saw you Joycelin. I miss you too!!! Remember to have lunch with us someday ok? We will be there in school so as long as you call us and make a date. :) Have fun with school everyone! Do remember to keep in touch so that Seven flowers and Dragon can be together in the long time to come!!!! Cheerios!
However, thank God (This is just an expression. I never ever believe there is one.) that I have such good friends in Poly. They are always on the constant lookout for me. Helping me whenever they can. And not forgetting that they encourage me when I am down. I am sorry I took this long to write a thank you to all of you for the lovely card you sent me. In all my life, this is the first time I have recieved an encouragement note from my friends. To all my Seven flowers, I Thank You!
I will work hard from now on! I know words are cheap, so stay in tuned to see my results from ICAs and exams. I will prove it to everyone! And that my friends, is a promise by Dragon.
Finally, it has indeed been a long time since I saw you Joycelin. I miss you too!!! Remember to have lunch with us someday ok? We will be there in school so as long as you call us and make a date. :) Have fun with school everyone! Do remember to keep in touch so that Seven flowers and Dragon can be together in the long time to come!!!! Cheerios!
Friday, October 20, 2006
Sch has Started....
Sch has started n it's nt as fun as last tym... Onli mi classical n all others is either studyin or doin their tep... sian!!! ahah but it's fun 2 look 4 those n tep n chat wif em n catch up... n Shereen!!! caught her 'eating snake' a few tyms le... thou i onli went 2 sch 4 3 days! saw her doing Crossword Puzzle !!! summore saw her Sitting Down doing it!!! Hor! gonna report 2 ur teacher liaoz... n 1 suay thin... realised i bought e same pair of earrings as her! haha... omg!...
N as usual... Ami is hardworking as usual... saw hw stressed she was looking 4 suppliers... hey Ami! relax! u sure can do it! n saw hw tired SW was n JY wif her happy-go-lucky face... haha... n my dearest Pocky!! met her on mon n she told mi she was going 2 gym... determined 2 bcum realli slim huh? jia you on tt babe.. haha... So far didn't managed 2 catch Dragon n Xh in sch...
Heard tt ur had lunch 2gether several tyms without mi!!! sobs... So i guess ur more or less oso gt quieter without mi rite? haha... okok... i'll say no more or else der will b eggs throwin @ mi soon... haha...
Wel... starting on my personal selling too... Hope I'll b able 2 find enough customers 2 keep my grades up.. n gd luck 2 Ami
n Shereen in their PS too...Well... I'll stop here 4 nw... Will cum back soon.... Miss u guys! Muackz!!! haha
N as usual... Ami is hardworking as usual... saw hw stressed she was looking 4 suppliers... hey Ami! relax! u sure can do it! n saw hw tired SW was n JY wif her happy-go-lucky face... haha... n my dearest Pocky!! met her on mon n she told mi she was going 2 gym... determined 2 bcum realli slim huh? jia you on tt babe.. haha... So far didn't managed 2 catch Dragon n Xh in sch...
Heard tt ur had lunch 2gether several tyms without mi!!! sobs... So i guess ur more or less oso gt quieter without mi rite? haha... okok... i'll say no more or else der will b eggs throwin @ mi soon... haha...
Wel... starting on my personal selling too... Hope I'll b able 2 find enough customers 2 keep my grades up.. n gd luck 2 Ami
n Shereen in their PS too...Well... I'll stop here 4 nw... Will cum back soon.... Miss u guys! Muackz!!! haha
Saturday, October 07, 2006
World Trade Centre
It is late at night. It has been a long time since I blogged in here too. I just got back from watching a movie. World Trade Centre. We all know that in the year 2001, September 11, the two trade centres came crashing down into oblivion. Although I was celebrating my brother's birthday during that time, I was shocked by the news.
Thinking back, I really wasn't much affected by the news. Life still carried on as usual except for the few "ahhs" and "oohs" I got from my friends when talking about it the next day in school. However, after watching the movie tonight, I really thought through about the whole issue. But before we get into that, I'll give you all a review.
IT IS FUCKING GOOD!!!!!
The feelings and facial expressions of the actors simply put the show to live! Even though the scenes all look the same and it may not be as actioned packed as you concieved it to be, it still rocks! The show simply made me feel for the people who had their family members trapped under that pile of rubble when WTC (World Trade Centre) collapsed. The anxiety and suspense when waiting for news about your missing family member is almost too much too bear for me even though it is just a movie. Do catch it if you can. Certainly worth the $9.50.
As I was saying, thinking back about this whole issue, as racist as I may sound with this comment, I seriously do not know why Osama did this. So he used airplanes as missiles. I may commend him on being brilliant for thinking of using the airplanes, but if I see him, I would wanna give him the whooping of his life for being such a dolt. Pulling that stupid stunt only made him the enemy of one of the world's strongest country.
Enough about Osama. I really pity those whose family members who died due to the idiocy of a certain someone. Did you know that about 3000 people died from this? And this does not include those on the planes. About 300 people were those who went to help evacuate the WTC. Innocent people who laid down their lives for the job. I really honour them. And out of this whole fiasco, only 20 people survived this wreakage. How pathethic can this get?
Finally, the reason for the attack? Osama says it is because they are superior. Kill so many people just to fucking prove his stupid point. If I may, I'll impale him on his asshole and then leave him in the hot desert sun to rot like he should fucking be. Oppps. Did I sound a little harsh back there? Anyways, I am not being racist or anything. This is just against Osama and Osama alone. Like they always say in DOTA, "OWNING!!!!!!"
Thinking back, I really wasn't much affected by the news. Life still carried on as usual except for the few "ahhs" and "oohs" I got from my friends when talking about it the next day in school. However, after watching the movie tonight, I really thought through about the whole issue. But before we get into that, I'll give you all a review.
IT IS FUCKING GOOD!!!!!
The feelings and facial expressions of the actors simply put the show to live! Even though the scenes all look the same and it may not be as actioned packed as you concieved it to be, it still rocks! The show simply made me feel for the people who had their family members trapped under that pile of rubble when WTC (World Trade Centre) collapsed. The anxiety and suspense when waiting for news about your missing family member is almost too much too bear for me even though it is just a movie. Do catch it if you can. Certainly worth the $9.50.
As I was saying, thinking back about this whole issue, as racist as I may sound with this comment, I seriously do not know why Osama did this. So he used airplanes as missiles. I may commend him on being brilliant for thinking of using the airplanes, but if I see him, I would wanna give him the whooping of his life for being such a dolt. Pulling that stupid stunt only made him the enemy of one of the world's strongest country.
Enough about Osama. I really pity those whose family members who died due to the idiocy of a certain someone. Did you know that about 3000 people died from this? And this does not include those on the planes. About 300 people were those who went to help evacuate the WTC. Innocent people who laid down their lives for the job. I really honour them. And out of this whole fiasco, only 20 people survived this wreakage. How pathethic can this get?
Finally, the reason for the attack? Osama says it is because they are superior. Kill so many people just to fucking prove his stupid point. If I may, I'll impale him on his asshole and then leave him in the hot desert sun to rot like he should fucking be. Oppps. Did I sound a little harsh back there? Anyways, I am not being racist or anything. This is just against Osama and Osama alone. Like they always say in DOTA, "OWNING!!!!!!"
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Its been so long since i blog here....
Big News...... " shereen broke a record during lunch time" ......
haha... she finish her food first.... she was so proud about it.... beat roan n me.... haha.... everybody quick praise her..... LOL.....
I am at FSRC agin... usual rotine.... watch monster house today.....
as usual, this place is like north pole... freezing.... i am SO COLD plus i am already wearing my jacket..... FREEZING.....
Cold until cannot type le... i am not joking.. really very cold....
Big News...... " shereen broke a record during lunch time" ......
haha... she finish her food first.... she was so proud about it.... beat roan n me.... haha.... everybody quick praise her..... LOL.....
I am at FSRC agin... usual rotine.... watch monster house today.....
as usual, this place is like north pole... freezing.... i am SO COLD plus i am already wearing my jacket..... FREEZING.....
Cold until cannot type le... i am not joking.. really very cold....
Friday, September 22, 2006
dragon!happy birthday!

dragon!happy 18th birthday!i'm so sorry that i can't attend ur birthday party coz i'm working and is unable to take leave as my boss just sacked two of the promoters.....dragon...really sorry.....so i went online and found u ur favourite cartoon character....powerpuff girls!!!!!!yeah!!!!!!!!!!haha...just jk.....hope u like this picture......i'm sure u enjoyed urself today right?stay cheerful and cute!huggies! :)
Monday, September 18, 2006
1 vote 4 dragon's previous post
It's been hard on u, dragon... i noe hw u feel... sumtyms u juz wanna relax @ hm but wen ur parents juz open their mouths n shout, u juz gt 2 do as wad dey say.... n sumtyms u juz dun feel lyk goin out n juz wanna slack @ hm... but u gotta complete hsework 1st b4 u can slack... n tt has oredi taken half of our tym... well... anyway.. SUMONE'S BDAE IS CUMIN! COUNTING DOWN 3 MORE DAYS... WATCH OUT!!! Haha...
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Life is indeed sedentary
Hmmm. Chalet is over. Life is reverted back to normal. I have to admit, I really enjoyed the past few days at the chalet. Perhaps it is only when I am with my friends then I am truly happy. Kinda makes me think if I should seriously continue waiting for a certain person. Oh well. Things aside.
Life is kinda meaningless for me now. I just can't seem to get into a joyous mood no matter what happns. I think it is because of Accounts. Maybe hanging out with you all would make me happier. Haha! Who knows? Recently, I have been finding myself sleeping at such ungodly hours ever since the holidays started. I kinda usually sleep at four or five A.M in the morning. Obviously sleeping at such late hours, it would have taken a toll on me. Surprisingly, I feel as energetic as ever! Maybe it is because I sleep till noon. I suppose when people get an adequete amount of sleep, no matter what time they sleep, they will not be tired. Hahah!
Of course the main reason of me sleeping so "early" is because of something, or rather someone. One of my friend says she has some herbal pill that she would bring over someday that would let me sleep earlier. I sure hope that works. If that doesn't work, it seems like I would just have to do some self administering to sleep. A classic example would be like counting sheep. Actually I tried that before and I still couldn't get to sleep because when I came to the fifth sheep, the sheep couldn't jump over the fence and I was stuck at that number for the whole night. Hahahah! If this still do not work, looks like I have to bang my head on the wall till I go unconcious and maybe with a little luck, not wake up forever.
I really am begining to hate my brother. Staying at home and not contributing at all. I am talking about housework. Although as much as I like to do it, there are sometimes I want to relax. That black piece of living shit at my house now is currently lazing his ass off while I did the laundry. What about my sister you ask me? That cunning girl is even more cunning than I ever imagined. She always uses the excuse of having to study for the O's to run away from houework. I didn't see why that excuse wasn't valid for me to excuse myself from housework when I was taking O's that year. As you can see, all the work is pushed unto me. ARGH!!!!!! Pissed. Period. And my mom, she can never seem to stop calling my name when something happens. Even simple chores like emptying the rubbish when I am doing something and the other two living dummies aren't even doing anything. Sheesh!
Oh well. Enough ranting. Finally got everything outta my system. Just don't take this post seriously. I am not depressed or anything. Just feel like complaining. Lastly, Joycelin. Blog more often now that your computer has been reformatted. You got no excuse now. Wahahahahah!
Life is kinda meaningless for me now. I just can't seem to get into a joyous mood no matter what happns. I think it is because of Accounts. Maybe hanging out with you all would make me happier. Haha! Who knows? Recently, I have been finding myself sleeping at such ungodly hours ever since the holidays started. I kinda usually sleep at four or five A.M in the morning. Obviously sleeping at such late hours, it would have taken a toll on me. Surprisingly, I feel as energetic as ever! Maybe it is because I sleep till noon. I suppose when people get an adequete amount of sleep, no matter what time they sleep, they will not be tired. Hahah!
Of course the main reason of me sleeping so "early" is because of something, or rather someone. One of my friend says she has some herbal pill that she would bring over someday that would let me sleep earlier. I sure hope that works. If that doesn't work, it seems like I would just have to do some self administering to sleep. A classic example would be like counting sheep. Actually I tried that before and I still couldn't get to sleep because when I came to the fifth sheep, the sheep couldn't jump over the fence and I was stuck at that number for the whole night. Hahahah! If this still do not work, looks like I have to bang my head on the wall till I go unconcious and maybe with a little luck, not wake up forever.
I really am begining to hate my brother. Staying at home and not contributing at all. I am talking about housework. Although as much as I like to do it, there are sometimes I want to relax. That black piece of living shit at my house now is currently lazing his ass off while I did the laundry. What about my sister you ask me? That cunning girl is even more cunning than I ever imagined. She always uses the excuse of having to study for the O's to run away from houework. I didn't see why that excuse wasn't valid for me to excuse myself from housework when I was taking O's that year. As you can see, all the work is pushed unto me. ARGH!!!!!! Pissed. Period. And my mom, she can never seem to stop calling my name when something happens. Even simple chores like emptying the rubbish when I am doing something and the other two living dummies aren't even doing anything. Sheesh!
Oh well. Enough ranting. Finally got everything outta my system. Just don't take this post seriously. I am not depressed or anything. Just feel like complaining. Lastly, Joycelin. Blog more often now that your computer has been reformatted. You got no excuse now. Wahahahahah!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
I've reTurnEd...
Yo!! I'vE reTurnEd!!!! plZ claP!! ha... c aloT of coloRs? i'M tRyiNg oUt tIs thinGy.. dUn miNd Mi...
TiS yR's cHaleT wAs nt reALli a suCcesS... Th0t oF hAviNg anOthEr chAlet... hAha... tInk sUm oF u wOulD tiNk i'M crAzy...
BuT anYwaY... enJoyEd bBq e mOst... n nT 4gTtiNg e "pIaK!"... oUr beLovEd drAgon hAs leFt uS anOthEr hiStory...he hAs nT faiLed 2 mAke alL oF uS lauGh...
WelL.... 4goTten 2 taKe foTos unTil e 2nD dAe... s0 oNli gt 3 oN haNd...
TiS yR's cHaleT wAs nt reALli a suCcesS... Th0t oF hAviNg anOthEr chAlet... hAha... tInk sUm oF u wOulD tiNk i'M crAzy...
BuT anYwaY... enJoyEd bBq e mOst... n nT 4gTtiNg e "pIaK!"... oUr beLovEd drAgon hAs leFt uS anOthEr hiStory...he hAs nT faiLed 2 mAke alL oF uS lauGh...
WelL.... 4goTten 2 taKe foTos unTil e 2nD dAe... s0 oNli gt 3 oN haNd...
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Newly made forum!
Dear people! I want to try something new with all of you! So do give me your full support and do what I am about to tell you. First off. Our forum.
Forum
This will take up only 5 mins of your time. Go to the forum and register an account in the forum. Soon you will be able to post in the forum. :)
I will post instructions on how to do foruming in the near future. Good luck and have fun!
Forum
This will take up only 5 mins of your time. Go to the forum and register an account in the forum. Soon you will be able to post in the forum. :)
I will post instructions on how to do foruming in the near future. Good luck and have fun!
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