It's over. It's officially over. I wouldn't think I would be able to free myself from this 5 year chain which I had bounded myself to. I know how ironic I sound saying I will prevail and never ever let go, but then again...
If you people are on the same wavelength as me, you will know what I mean. Just when I thought life was getting more simple, someone up there decided to throw some shit at me and make me squirm like a miserable little worm. I bet he must be laughing his ass off right now.
I remembered once how I told a certain friend of mine that it was actually quite simple for her to solve her problem. Now that I find myself in the same predicament, I was a helpless little worm. Rather, I quite understand how she felt at that time. Guess I am too much of a person to solve things logically. Somehow, it has dawned on me that matters of the heart can NEVER be simply solved by logic. Or to put it bluntly, logic has no place when it comes to matters like those.
Apart from feeling all these, I feel like a jerk. One that has not kept to his promises. Not only that, a tinge of betrayal to my own words. As though all these wasn't enough for me, it somehow affects my future plans. Oh boy! I guess someone up there doesn't really like me a lot. Making me suffer currently wasn't enough, so he had to plan my future suffering.
Bah! I am at quite a loss now. Although I have come to a decision, I am not really sure if it would be a good one. I guess I have to trouble more of my friends now. Somehow, I foresee that things aren't gonna be solved any time soon. I think I should stop. No point trying to speak in riddles when everyone knows what is happening. I shall stop now.
Life sucks, like a vacuum cleaner.
