joycelin...hope u are feeling better now....really sorry that i can't make it to the wake as i will be very emo at wake and have since avoided going to wake unless i really have to go......some personal reason as i will tend to cry during wake....just hope that u are really feeling better as i'm very sure your grandmother are in heaven and living peacefully now....take care

Some Thoughts to Share

Hello, I am back finally after a gazillion yrs. Haha. Ok, this might gonna b a long and boring post coz I've gt quite a bit to share about myself. So pardon me. >< color="#6600cc">this is not a sad post, it's something I feel like sharing with you people. What's over is over, I am happy as I used to be now.

1. Firstly, CONGRATS to 6 flowers (and myself) that you all have graduated! :) We have all decided what to do next, at least for the next few yrs. So that's gd. So gd luck in your future endeavours, no matter if you going to work to study. :)

As for dragon, we'll wait for you to graduate and accompany through your NS days ok? So work hard now and graduate soon arh!

2. Guys, thanks for coming to the wake. I feel really touched and happy. No words can describe. Truly, only in times of need you'll see who are your true friends. You guys are one bunch of mine. =D Shereen, I know you can't make it, I understand. So, don't worry.Over the 1 week wake, I didn't cry except when I got the news my grandma pass on . I felt better, really, or maybe I thought so.The day of crementation was torturing for me. I cried hard and badly. ( Jim said he was kinda stunned to see me in that way. haha) I couldn't imagine in just a few minutes my grandma's face and body would be gone and into ashes. I can't see her anymore. Oh, FYI, she was baptised few mths ago. Thus, the funeral was a christian one.

My christian relatives kept telling me she's in heaven, not suffering anymore, when i agitatedly ask where my grandma gone to. Tears kept rolling down my cheeks, uncontrollably. You know when sometimes you are so desperate and sad that you would keep shouting and ask dumb questions when crying? Yah, I was in that state sub conciously. I remember I asked (or screaming) questions like " Where ah ma has gone to?", "Ah ma, come back!", "Ah ma, I'm sorry.", "Ah ma, rest in peace?", "Why of all my ah ma gt such an illness (colon cancer), She's still young." and the sentence I repeated the most " I got no (paternal) ah ma anymore/ You know I got no ah ma anymore, you know????". I think Jim was also lost in seeing me like this, to a state where he didn;t know how to console me. At that time, I didn't need any consoles from anyone, really. I just wanna cry out loud. I got a few stares from my relatives, those not so close ones. haha. I guess they are shocked I reacted this way, but who cares? I thought I will have a good cry that day, and after that day I will not shed anymore tears and lead a happy life.

From last year end till now, because of my grandma's illness, my family and relatives are more bonded and closer. Pros and cons I would say. Each and everyone of us would make an effort to visit my grandma every once, at least twice. The past two or three months, when her condition worsened, all of us went over almost everyday. You all might say when my grandma is sick and then visit her, isn't it too late? Yes, I know lah. Too late la. But I guess this is the most painful yet happiest moment of my grandma's life. Coz at least she knows we are there for her and have not given up on her. No one in the family was ingrateful or unfillial. She's very fortunate to have all her children and grandchildren taking turns to take care of her, even the doctors and nurses who visited said so too. I can see everyone did their part. I became closer to my grandma too. :) Because of this incident, I learnt to speak Hokkien. haha. Before that, I didn't know how to and didn't want to learn oso. Not say that my Hokkien is super fluent now, but I can speak at least speak simple short sentences and pronounce correctly.

I guess my second aunt is the most tiring, since she's living with my grandma and have to take care of her and her children and cope with her job. I think she really deserves an applause *claps*. She really did a good job, being so attentive towards my grandma and she really understands what my grandma wants, more than anyone else.Thinking back, I was lucky that I graduated this year, maybe heaven is giving me a last chance to take care of my grandma. Before I found a job, I accompanied her to hospital check-ups and went to visit her as frequently as I could. In between my two jobs, I was jobless for 2-3 weeks. So, I went to stay over at my grandma house to take care of my grandma during the weekdays when my auntie was working. When working, visited her aft work and during weekends. But, I feel I didn't do my best to take care of her. But well, it's over.

Grandma, rest in peace. :)

3. Recently, I've seen through lots of things, good and bad, in this practical world. I saw good human nature in some people and ugly side in some. Beyond words I can describe my appreciation and disappointment to these people. Caring and sincere relatives, aloof and uncaring relatives, ungrateful people taking others for granted. So so in return, I will treat them as how they treat me. Finally, I know some are already waiting to see this...

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XH is here!~ =D

hello~ who0o0o! so long since i log in. i couldnt log in. and dragon helped me to reset and everything. so i can now update! thnks bro! :)

*ipromiseiwilltrytoupdatefreq*

i dunno wat to blog abt. but i promised some1 i will update. ok. i will come up w something.

let me think let me think let me think..........

thinking..
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hmmm, ok, shall update abt MYSELF! :)

1) currently working @ a company called INTTRA. Nature of biz is shipping. oh, but im only a dumb temp admin there. and 80% of the time, im fixing the monster dispenser that broke down on me 3 times when im not even w the co. for 3 mths. Stupid thing. oh btw, my last day's 20th jun! heeee. HAPPIES! PSST! i overheard my supervisor telling the agency to try harder to find some1 asap! cuz the new girls that she interviewed arent up to standard! wahahaha! im da best so far lah~ *shys* hey hey hey, the dispenser arent easy to handle ok! consider the fact that im a biz student doing engineering stuff? hahaha, impressed? LOL, dun ask me to diam leh.

oh yeah. work's pretty fun too cuz of our email convo circulation. Participants include joy, ami, sw & pocky! recently, shereen joined us too! too bad jy and dragon cant have email access all the time due reasons (no access/having lessons), if not all of us will have a BLAST lah.

hmmm. wat else..

oh. i love doing courier. The fedex guy! Haha, he always called me by my name lah! *ok, thats dumb* When im asked to call for courier, i will do it vvvv quickly! but sadly, ytd when i did it, it was the other guy who came. hahahaha. oh, he's malay. OKAY, perhaps yongtao is better. *by any chance, yong tao's reading this blog?* wahaha, im kidding lah!

2) next next.. oh yeah, gotten into SIM:) will start 1st july! thats like so fast! i feel like i haven been resting enough since... the exams were over? after that, its job searching. and work work work.

yeah, the KL trip w my poly frens! but seriously, its like nth lah. half the time, im travelling. so nvm. im working till 20th jun as mentioned, so am still looking fwd to have FUN till sch starts. so feel free to ask me out! :) anytime~

oh yes, gotten into the same intake as joy, jy and shereen! :) SIM might not be as recognize as the local unis. but still, the prospects, i feel, are the same as the local unis. so not to worry! :) after all, this is true, its your ability that talks and not tt pc of paper. (but yes, paper still plays a part) so, to joy, jy & shereen, lets work hard tgt in SIM ok!:)

congrats to ami&sw! they secured a place in the local unis! :) work hard too alright!:)

pocky, we will see u in jan 09's intake!:) for now, work hard as a recruitm consultant ya?

and dragon, one more sem to go rite! jiayou ok! save me a tix, cuz i will be there to attend ur graduation ceremony! :) dun slack slack and psp all the time huh. CHIONG for the final sem!:)

to all, not an easy journey to embark on, so all of us will work hard tgt ok! but ok lah, but play hard as well ok. GET A LIFE pple! haha. dun study all the time! :p



and for now.. seriously, i dunno wat else to blog. haha. let me think first ok? i will be back:)

in the meantime, take care pple!:) loves.

As usual, I am the one updating. (Damn! Got to think up of better titles...)

I was getting too tired of looking at my own handsome face as the first post of this almost forsaken blog. I have no idea how often you people still visit this place, nor do I have any idea if you people actually remember if we still had a blog. But I am not intending to stop just yet. We are together in this so I am gonna make it happen.

As the saying goes, "If I don't sacrifice myself, who else will?"

Anyways, on to a happier side, I have decided to dedicate this post to my graduating girls whom recently graduated from Nanyang Polytechnic, School of Business Management. This is to commemorate the joyous occassion which I will be blogging with many many pictures! This post will be very graphical and some MIGHT be NSFW. In case you are wondering what NSFW means, it means, NOT SAFE FOR WORK. So those reading the blog at work, please be cautious. :)

I am glad that I was able to attend the graduation ceremony. It is all thanks to Shu Yun's extra ticket. One thing though, the whole ceremony is BORING! But hey! I get to see all my flowers graduating. That itself is very gratifying. Anyways, let us get on with the pictures. If I go on any further, this post will never end.

The ceremony started with everyone filling the hall. You can hear scuffling of shoes. Chatter between parents of the graduans. Cameras flashing when the graduans made their way in to sit. Every minor detail was captured by every parent when it invovled their children. Heck! Some parents even brought video camera to capture the moment as though they were filming a biography of some great person. Haha. You should see some of the way the parents stood just to capture their kid on camera. You'll probably get a huge laugh out of it.



There's Pocky. She's so bored that she decided to make faces at us and somehow or rather, we magically managed to capture a picture of a pig. LOL!



The boredom even got to Xiu Hui. She decided to whip out her phone and all I heard was "SELL! SELL THE STOCK YOU MORON! WE ARE EARNING MILLIONS THIS TIME!" Wow. Da Jie is already making millions even before she graduates.

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Ok. That was purely fictional on the author's part. Authors start to write like that when they are lacking some readership on their blog. Moving on, the ceremony finally decided to start and I was sincerely hoping that something interesting would be happening and never did I expect that I am going to LITERALLY see 400+ students go up one by one to collect their certificates. Who cares about them?! I just want to see my flowers collecting theirs! The rest can just go jump into a lake and start swimming with sebestian singing "under the sea".



First up is our Pocky. Yes. We. Know. How. Short. You. Are. Pocky. LOL!



Then came Jie Yi. Aww. Seeing this again is making me wanting to cry. *sniff sniff*



Followed by our resident chio bu of sengkang, Joycelin.



Finally! The one who is earning millions of dollars as we speak. Was half expecting her to talk while shaking that guy's hand. Our well loved and respected Da Jie.

And now, I am proud to present you the merit holders!



Amilia! My CB! Charcoal Buddy! Woooohooo!



Last but not least, the one whom I am going to marry at the age of ... OPPPS! Pardon me CY if you are reading this. I meant to say, last but not least, our very own... Shu Yun!!!

So that is how the author has managed to bleep out the other 394+ people for you. By just posting up pictures of the IMPORTANT people. After the whole thing, we were chased ushered out into the foyer where every graduans started snapping pictures like there were no tomorrow. After which, everyone went off to celebrate with their parents and friends. So I shall end this post with more pictures.

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P.S: To my 7 wonderful flowers. I am very happy indeed to see all of you blossoming into beautiful people and moving on further at the next step in life. Remember. No matter what you do or what happens, do not forget one another. Like what Amilia said. Good luck for your future endeavours!

As autumn comes, the flower petels will fall. But once spring is here, the flower will once again blossom into the most beautiful things on Earth. So life is full of ups and downs. Don't give up alright! I love each and everyone of you! :)

Ok. I want to end now. I just realised, I am saying all these so called words of 'wisdom', but I am still stuck in that stupid institute. Hahahah! This time its really the

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